Sunday, September 12, 2004
life :: suckage exams :: SCRAP THEM!
so, here's my angst (?!) rant.
(lucky you.)
me, I have ALWAYS always wanted to be a bad girl. take my regret I've expressed about my childhood (in MSN), for eg.:
fong yee [gimme my dream] says:
sometimes, I regret not milking my youth, for what it's worth... should have thrown more tandrums, gotten more things using my baby wiles
You see? Bad bad girl.
You know that word? 10 letters? sounds like "principals"? Yeah, that, P-R-I-N-C-I-P-L-E-S... What is that anyway? Where did it come from? WHO AM I ANSWERABLE TO??? (unless you believe in a God, etc of course) Why in the world do I stick to it? It's like this stumbling block to my days of vice and debauchery... it's like in
Stubble...
Oh hahhah... (I just had another look at the comic)...
Despite how Josh (comic character) resolves the split self dilemma, it's like, I still want to be bad. (This is very gothic and all, if you hadn't noticed.) ARRRRGH... It makes me think about Vasudha's comment about how I "can't be all that innocent if I'm that good at Gothic"... What if the reason why I can identify with the genre is
because, like our good Victorians, I am so damn
repressed??? oMG,... we havee a winnar!
fong yee [gimme my dream] says:
I wonder what all the energy other people put in doing what they want and having their own way goes to? facing the consequences?
fong yee [gimme my dream] says:
then what about me, us, whatever?
fong yee [gimme my dream] says:
are we then repressed???
XZ says:
is this gothic?
XZ says:
haha
fong yee [gimme my dream] says:
hmmm... now that you mention it, the gothic explains alot
Yes, this is where I got this idea... Haiz... (I was wondering how people could just be, umm, bad and do whatever they want...kinda, anyway.)
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Nah, that's not really the problem. I just (probably) don't want to study. Man, that's really lame when it comes down to that. Hehh... What I'm saying is, I don't really want to do is study for the coming prelims or have the hell to do with anything that are test (or synomous to it, etc) in my life? -ish? Tests suck, they seem to be the main blockage to an enjoyable life. Ah well... in the short term anyway (remember, econs, define parameters and all that). Sigh... I suck, the world sucks...
well, wtf, I think I should stop wallowing, haiz... Good night, I think...
[Addendum:
Highsmith’s The Talented Mr. Ripley is about the snobbish voice of superiority that resides within each of us, the voice that proclaims we’re smarter and more sensitive than the fools around us. It’s also the voice that on occasion steps over the line and sneers that the damn fools would be better off dead, especially the ones who’ve acquired money and prestige that we’ve been denied.
I was thinking about this
movie too. No wonder.]
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at 1:18 am
